Do you know yourself deeply?

“There is only one corner of the universe that you can be certain of improving . . . and that’s your own self.” — Aldous Huxley

Everything you do, feel, say, touch, hear, taste, and experience begins with you. I don’t mean that in a selfish sense of the word. I mean it begins with knowing you. It’s surprisingly common for us to not know simply who we are. We are shockingly ok with never suffering with ourselves and finding out who we are as people. 

Can you be alone for 48 hours? No phone, internet, book, music, people, toys, or distractions of any kind. I can sacrifice the mountain-top experience we’re going for here and provide you with life essentials. That’d be shelter, food, and water; nothing else. It’s you and your thoughts. 

That scares the shit out of a lot of folks. It’s a dimension unfamiliar to many and one we should dive into more frequently. It can be tough, and I can accept that. It’s difficult to unplug from the world when we have responsibilities to maintain, people to be accountable to, and things to accomplish. Nevertheless, it is a said fact that we can’t find a minute anywhere in our lives to embark on that 48 hour venture and hack through surreal discovery. 

I’m not swaying you to be one kind of person either. You don’t have to be the type of person to wait the extra 15 seconds and hold the door for somebody in public as they approach the door from a distance that it’d be acceptable not to. You don’t have to go out of your way to pick up litter off the ground and find a trash can that is out of sight. Now, both of those things are polite and good-natured in there own right and there is plenty to like about them both. Though, they don’t make you a good or bad person, necessarily. Obviously there are extremes to those scenarios that could define good and bad people, but that isn’t our focus. 

On an even deeper level, recognizing what kind of person you are by no means begins or ends with being “good” or “bad”. There are zillions of personality traits to dig through that form our personality DNA. I simply chose two opposites. I’d even go as far as to say there are no innately “bad” people in the world. Our experiences mold us into products of those happenings. Regardless of good/bad, plenty of other opposing ideologies exist and form who we are. That is our focus. 

To truly know yourself. Know the things about you that define you in certain situations. I know I have a hard time with execution. When it comes time to execute something and I can feel it existing and waiting in my path I can feel myself pulling away and creating an excuse to stagnate and procrastinate the execution itself. It’s something I want to change about myself and will require much patience and deliberate rewiring of deep, simple yet deep, habits. 

The depth of this writing doesn’t do the concept justice. I’ll most likely revisit, but we’ll end here for now. 

See the world through your own lense. Don’t purchase the lense from Walmart or a fancy camera store. Craft the lense yourself through hard work and dedicate hours of practice and self reflection. What kind of lense do you want to see the world through and act in the world with? Develop that and get familiar with it. You’ll climb mountains you never planned to. 

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